Friday, October 5, 2018

The Return of Daniel Bladow


October 5th, 2018
A group of Mozambique Returned Peace Corps Volunteers 

I did the craziest thing last weekend! I was walking down the street like any normal day. Well, except there’s only concrete everywhere and I cannot for the life of me find some normal sand or dirt to walk on. It’s just row after row after row of concreted/asphalted ground – disconnected from the life and planet that lives beneath us. Anyway, walking down the street I pass a 7-Eleven. Pausing for a moment, I have a genius idea – I walk in and BUY A DONUT. MIND BLOWN. Like seriously BLOWN. I bought a donut. No rhyme or reason or anything. I just bought a donut. And it was delicious and filled with sugar and disgusting and sweat and everything I could have ever dreamed it would be. Arriving at home, I stepped up my game – I called a local pizza store and ORDERED A PIZZZZZZAA!!!!!! And it gets better – there was customer service, a patient gentleman taking my call helping me decide what kind of pizza I wanted. Then, the pizza CAME TO ME in a timely manner and it was still hot when it arrived. Man. Boy oh boy. Unlike anything I’ve had in a long time. The simple comforts of being able to buy a donut off the street or order a pizza and not have to leave the apartment.

Being back is weird. It’s harder for me to be back than it was for me to leave. Sometimes I struggle to explain the difference – life is fundamentally different in Mozambique. My colleagues and neighbours in Mozambique fight to survive yet are often happy and sometimes sad/tired. They go for walks and enjoy spending time with others. I integrated myself into their culture and adapted it, in-part, as my own. I would lose track of time and go for long walks. I would get lost in a book for hours or days on end.

Here’s the big difference as bet I can define it: the standard of living in the US is higher: access to clean water, food, sanitation, formal jobs, etcetera. The lifestyle in the US is more stressful: what are you doing with your life? How much money do you make? Where is your career going? Why aren’t you doing anything productive right now? Are you good enough of a person? Once all of those aspects are taken care of, only then can you take a break from the work grind and relax/play.

In Mozambique, your concerns are more basic because you focus on food, water, housing, education. Once those aspects of your day are covered, you spend time with friends and family chatting, relaxing, and playing. Spending time with the people around you is highly valued – even if you don’t know them!!

It used to be socially acceptable for me to start a conversation with anyone – on the bus, sidewalk, or in a store. Now, I’m supposed to sit close on the subway and put in headphones and try hard not to make eye-contact with anyone. Be quiet. Be still. Don’t disturb anyone around you. I’ve never been good at following the rules; I start random conversations with strangers and get to know them. I have less social anxiety about conversing with the cute girl taking her dog for a walk in the park or the Haitian gentleman driving my subway.

All-in-all, I am adjusting but some things I hope I never adjust to. I hope I never get used to walking on concrete or striking up conversations with strangers. If you’ve read my blogs, you know how the concept of heated, pressurized, and potable water at any spigot/facet is INSANE. It’s also amazing and makes my life much easier. The ironic part of being back is I spend less time fetching water, cleaning dishes, and washing clothes yet I some how have less free time in my day-to-day life. Seems legit?

Every day I am still processing the last 2 years of my life. I’ve had some close encounters. Like an open-back vehicle without functioning brakes and the engine died on the way up a hill. I had to bail because it started to roll backwards, and the driver decided to take it into a ditch risking a roll-over instead of coasting down the hill. Or the time a 4-foot-deep river formed and washed out the road between my town and Montepuez making it much more challenging to get my monthly salary…

I’ve had some heart-breaking experiences. Like when my house was broken into and the thieves stole things from my room and I did not wake up. It took me a few months after that to sleep normally through the night. Or the time a fellow teacher manipulated his students and tried to force them to pay him a bribe. Or the moment I realized that the Millennium Development Goals (and other United Nations programs/initiatives) in many cases are reinforcing humanitarian crimes. Basically the “statistic-driven evaluation” forces countries to fake development further reinforcing a broken system. Bribery and rape in the high schools gets reinforced because of the pressure to have x% of students pass an elevated curriculum so that on paper it looks like within y years Mozambique’s education system will be equivalent to the international standard.

I’ve had heart-warming experiences. Like my neighbours who brought me food and money after my house was broken into, or the neighbourhood kids who led more of an investigation into the thieves than the actual police (I’m currently laughing at how ridiculous this is: a group of 4-to-14-year-olds led a better investigation than the police chief). Or the time a student came over to practice math – I did not have time to help him so I gave him some toys and colouring supplies. He wrote me a letter saying, “Daniel you know I did not come to play. Today I came to learn.” You can bet I was never too busy for a student again. Or my 9th graders who became tutors and helped teach my 8th graders how to add, subtract, multiply, and divide. In Montepuez I received a warm-welcoming by the American families who work on bible translations and pastoral development. Richard and Caroline repeatedly welcomed me into their house. They fed me, had my clothes washed in a washing machine, and lifted my spirits. In Namuno, Eusebia constantly offered her advice, knowledge, and protection. She welcomed me into her family. The director invited me over for meals and loved discussing math. The French teacher practiced coding skills with me and wants to start a chicken farm! Lino and Samuel helped with all household chores, so they could earn simple things like a cheap phone.
I am deeply honoured and humbled to have had the opportunity to serve in the Peace Corps and in Mozambique.

I’m currently living in Boston until Mid-November when I have some client visits, Thanksgiving, more client visits, and then back to Mozambique by early December. I have a long list of things I aim to do, many of which I’ve already crossed off: hiking, order a pizza, go to the top 30 coffee shops in Boston, salsa dancing, see a movie in a theatre, drink all the beers, and many other random-ish things. It’s a much-needed reprieve. I’m catching my breath and preparing for the oncoming challenges – the uphill battle of starting my own company and having financial responsibilities to my employees and their families. I have some part-time work, so I don’t dip into my savings while in Boston. Most other moments are me buying donuts from 7-Elevens or making connections and expanding my network for our agriculture company in Mozambique (check-out our website: NKAgSolutions.com).

For many, Peace Corps is the highest highs and lowest lows. Not only that, but it has been a humbling experience full of growth, sadness, and strength. Everything I wanted out of my Peace Corps experience I’ve been given (challenge, growth, adapting a 2nd culture/language). Now it’s my turn to give back.

With all my heart,
Daniel Bladow
P.S. I will continue to write my blog posts! I have plenty of content I still want to write but already recognize my posts are generally on the longer side anyway.